It is entirely strange to have a body that does its own thing without any input from me at all. Pregnancy is strange. My abdomen moves around several times a day. My stomach continues to grow larger. There’s nothing I can do about it.
And most importantly, in roughly four weeks, my body will open up and birth a baby. I can’t stop it from happening any more than I can make it start. In all honesty, it’s a bit unsettling and somewhat frightening.
I know about biology. I know I did something to set this whole thing in motion. But after that one moment, I had no control over it anymore.
I don’t like the feeling of it being out of my control. I want to be ready to give birth before it happens. I’m just in a reflective mood tonight, I guess. I guess I need to accept the fact that most things in life are outside of my control. But really, it would be nice to at least have control of my own body. Right?
The silly thing about being pregnant, is it isn’t your body. You’re simply a house for another individual.
So the whole no control thing really only applies when it’s just me, myself and I. 
I am getting excited for you!
wait, youre FGIALC’s wife?
TOO COOL you have a blog as well.
who knew?
off to explore…
This is coming from someone who has a faboo little girl and adores the crap out of her- I felt the same about this alien inside of me. I cried on the delivery table, refusing to push because I did NOT want her out. I’m a control freak, and I honestly believed my life was over – my body as I knew it would never be the same (it is), I’d never get my own life back (I do). The first few months were hell for many reasons, (Brasil???) but I hit my stride, I’m in control and I’m happy. I’m pulling for you!
Erin: That’s just it! It’s weird that I’m not just ‘me, myself, and I’ right now. I’m excited too. (And scared!)
MizFit: Yep! I’m the proud wife of FGIALC. He’s awesome. Unfortunately, I haven’t updated my blog lately as regularly as he does.
reva: I’m glad I’m not the only one who felt that way. And I hope I get my body and my life back, too! I’m glad you hit your stride. Here’s hoping I do as well.