Reva asked how pregnancy is going for me, so I’m going to humor her with an update. Right now, things are great. I got really lucky and didn’t get the throwing up part of pregnancy. I don’t know if this is the reason, but I told myself that puking was unacceptable and I wouldn’t do it. And I didn’t. Except once when I had a migraine headache.
One of my biggest issues is that I’m so emotional right now. I cry about anything and everything. You know the movie Never Been Kissed with Drew Barrymore? Well, the ending is very predictable and cheesy. And I’ve seen it lots of times. But the other day I watched it, and at the end when the guy doesn’t show up to kiss her at the baseball field, I just started crying. How sad is it that she got her hopes up and he didn’t show up?! Never mind that one minute later he DOES show up and I knew that. I was bawling my eyes out.
The only other thing that has come up for me is that my changing body kind of freaks me out. I always though of pregnancy very abstractly, like it would never happen to me. And to be honest, I’ve never fully been comfortable with the idea of me being pregnant. But here I am, and my stomach gets larger and larger every day. I feel much less attractive, but I’m trying to deal with these feelings as I go.
I relate 100% on the “i-feel-so-unattractive” bit. Some women love being pregnant and I was not one of them, so if you feel that way at times too, at least you know you aren’t alone. Everyone will think you look so cute, and if John is anything like Chris, and I bet he is, he will love how you look pregnant, my husband did. But I didn’t. And guess what, it is only 9 months… or in my case almost 8 months… it is not forever, and then you will have your baby and you will still feel sucky at times afterward, not gonna lie- but you will also feel amazing because you created a little being and your life will hit an all-time high because of that, you will always feel needed( sometimes maybe too much!) but your life will take on a meaning that is not possible without having kids. It is all good, I swear! And this from a very messed up former preggo lady with a newborn!
You know what’s crazy? The emotional thing never went away for me. The never Been Kissed stuff still gets me, and it totally confuses me!! And udos on telling your bod who’s the boss and not letting it make you puke! You da mama!!